I have been busy!
The past several months I’ve been vaguely wondering to myself how I’ll be able to handle it when I’m busy. I’ve felt stressed out and anxious just being a housewife and waiting for visas, and I thought “how am I going to survive when I actually have stuff to be stressed out about?!”
It turns out that my anxiety is pretty much the same, no matter how much stuff I have going on in my life. If I don’t have things to feel stressed about, I feel anxious about leaving the house. If I don’t have to leave the house, I feel anxious that I *should* leave the house. The past few days have been sort of a whirlwind, and we have a lot to figure out, but I feel just as or even less stressed than I normally do. I’m perfectly confident that when I have to start language classes, I’ll definitely be nervous, but I’ll be fine. I won’t fall to pieces. I’ll just sweat a lot, stutter a bit, and be perfectly fine.
If anything, having real things to stress about really helps my anxiety. Last week, I was preoccupied with getting an apartment, and as I got myself ready to run to knitting group, I realized that I was so preoccupied that I wasn’t even nervous! I just kissed Andreas, ran out the door, and was fine!
Anyway, before I start anything life-changing like going to class multiple times a week, we have to complete the actual move. We’re hopfeully moving most of our stuff tomorrow, so I’ve been a packing maniac today! It started off slow, but has picked up and I’m nearly finished already! We’re not going to move in completely until we have internet there, so we can look important stuff up like how to get places and “leaky faucet fixes,” so until then we’re going to be staying in Sweden, but without all of our stuff. Should be fun.
This is my life today: