Every week, before I do our meal planning, I browse the local grocery store ads to see what’s on sale, and usually plan accordingly. This week, there was some inexpensive cod, and since it’s been a really long time since we’ve had fish, I decided to add it to the menu. Only, I got distracted during the meal-planning phase (gee, I wonder what could have possibly distracted me…), and had only planned “cod” for dinner tonight.
But you see, lately, we’ve been watching a lot of Chopped and Cutthroat Kitchen and Good Eats (Thank you very much, Netflix.) so I decided to just have a peek in our cupboards and throw something together. And though there was no timer ticking down or hosts breathing down my neck, I had to do it fast because Theo was hungry. And tired. And loud.
So I threw some couscous in a pan, chopped any vegetable I could get my hands on (tomato, zucchini, bell pepper, and onion), and tossed the cod onto the pan with some paprika, garlic powder, and salt and pepper. I added some hot pickled peppers that I found on special in Netto this week, and I can honestly say it’s the best fish meal I ever made. And I just made it up! All of it!
I know that doesn’t make me a chef, or super special or anything, but I’ve been getting a lot more comfortable in the kitchen over the years, and I realized that more and more often, I’ve been making up my own recipes, and they’re super delicious! I know it sounds really silly, but I just didn’t think that I was good enough to make up my own recipe. But I totally can.
It’s just funny, because I could always cook. But I also always thought to myself “anyone can cook, you just have to follow a recipe! So easy!” But lately, I really feel like I’m learning even more, and branching out, and maybe cooking in a way that not everyone can cook. And right now, during my super boring and slow and stressful job search, I need all the self-esteem I can get, and today it appeared as pan-seared cod!